I love being myself. I love waking up early, going all the way to gym and trying aerobics daily. I love getting tired and sleeping well. I love cooking and giving treat to myself. I love smiling and laughing whenever possible. I’m doing all these and loving my daily life.
My life is wonderful, stress-less and happy-going.
If I’m so happy with my day to day life why I am today shedding tears and feeling unsatisfied? Why there are tears on my pillow? Why thoughts are rushing in my head like a cyclone?
Yesterday I was happy. I felt awesome before going to sleep. Why today I’m not happy? Is it because I realized that I stopped struggling for my destiny and letting myself go with the life flow?
Is it because I’m satisfied with what I’ve got and too addicted with daily life pleasures?
There are so many things in life which I need and nobody else I know in this world can give me. But funny part is I don’t know what I actually need.
In this journey of life I’ve learned that Wealth and Well-being are short-lived. Wisdom is eternal. I know that one cannot have all three of them without struggle and pain. I also know that temptation is a sin. But still why I am tempted to have them all without any trial?
I have failed miserably today, not because I have failed. But because, I’ve failed to stand up again and try. I want to see water droplets on my forehead but not in my eyes. I want to be different from who I have been.
Don’t think too much – my heart says. But today my soul and mind are out of control. They are tired of my routine dead-life.
I think I’m being too pampered by myself. I think I’ve done hundreds of sins to get a little satisfaction of being cared everyday. I think I need medicine to stop all this naughtiness going on inside my head and go to sleep.
I think I am thinking too much. Am I?